Most parts done

I’ve installed most parts of it done. (for the desktop that is)

What I still have to do:

  • Install and make the server working
  • Test it so that a web-server inside VBox should be accessed outside the chain, in the guest OS
  • If this is done, install the following:
    • Nexus Maven repository
    • PostgreSQL database
    • Adempiere Server
    • Apache Web server
    • Team City build server (or Hudson)
  • Make a backup of this installation so that when I screwed up later on, I can immediately put it up.

Idea and Brainstorming notebook

Friends, Romans and Countrymen.  A lot of my friends ask me how do I generate fucking great out of this world ideas that is manifest-able maybe 1-5 years from conception.  The answer is simple.  I am just too bright and brilliant.  Nah, seriously, I use the Yeah! notebook bought from National Bookstore.  Helps me be creative.  I find it great for journal entry, to-do list, and idea and brainstorming notes.  Don’t forget also to glue your post it notes in there in any angle & color you like. =)  BTW, I use the pilot 0.3 gel pen for finer grain writing.

Gold in the junk

So excited right now as this goes with the saying that if you’re persistent enough, you will find gold in the junk.  But apparently all persistent and hardworking alchemist didn’t find a way to convert anything into gold, but instead derived the elements found in the Mendeleev Table of Elements.  This is what happened to me, I just realized it.  While I did not get what I want (a brand new sport bike with 650cc caliber), I did literally found an old vintage 1963 model of Harley Davidson cruiser motorbike (stripped off its brand) which is mine for the taking. =)

Its a junk that I found in our warehouse and its not working.  Its really old, old enough that I’ve seen it since I was in high school.  More than 10 years just sitting in the dust to rot.  I do not expect that much but I found that its metal hardly corroded – just a lil bit.  It has no batteries, no gauges and speedometer, stripped of back brakes, battery charger, and lastly – side mirrors.

  • I did bought a Motolite battery for motorcycles
  • 10 liter Shell Premium gasoline
  • Brake replacement at the back
  • Some repair for the keys and ignition

Boom! It just works.

But I’m not yet done with it.

  • Change oil
  • Metal polisher
  • Side mirrors
  • Helmet
  • Saddlebags like in the pics.
  • Repaint.  I like the shiny deep blue paint here: By the way, it is just as like in the picture, only the color has paler blue.
  • Lastly, practice riding this.

A month battle against myself

Its been a month now and I’m doing great. =) Apparently as time flies by and my mind shifted with other subjects like what really matters most and your business – not on your own self (other self perhaps? or even external self i.e. God). Craving (psychological and physical cravings – psychological being the most potent of the two – physical can just trigger the psychological part) is just a matter of focusing through others and seeing others as your self-image. How do you see yourself? From now? which lets you shift your mind-gravity into what really matters aside from feeding your soul with pleasure.

So the multi-million dollar question is: How did I combat it effectively to this date and hopefully tomorrow or the years to come?

the Answer would be to:

  1. Realize that you are fucked up, you mis-managed your time and you do not care anymore about yourself and have no self-respect, and *nothing* you can do about it. It just persist – even if you wanted not to.
  2. Instill to yourself that no one can help you aside from yourself and God – and some good friends that really hopes you well.
  3. Make a determination not to quit but to lessen it until its gone.
  4. Just forget about it! Shift your focus from your *self* to others like business, God, friends, etc.
  5. Have some support network of good friends.
  6. Have a really good determination to be apathetic about it. So what? You can just have coffee and boom, youre just as productive if not even more.  Afterall, you are just as fucked up as you are now – so why not just have a coffee break and be productive in what really matters.
  7. Surround yourself with hobbies (not vices) you cant live without. Participate in extreme sports. Water sports proved to be more of a challenge and hard to master at first.
  8. Well, thing is, just forget about it. It just have to be recreational, so why are you submitting yourself through it like it is some sort of god who empowers you? If you cant control it in 5 straight days without, have a will to just KILL & SHOOT yourself – seriously.
  9. It really helps to have a support friends that will empower you to think other subjects even when they are gone. I’m an IT person and technology generally amazes me – even with cool ideas.  And since I am a software engineer, implementing those ideas are more appealing.  My friends generally guided me to just forget about the cravings, and think things as to implementing those suggested ideas.
  10. By saying forget about it, you are not forgetting it, instead you are just craving.
  11. In summary, my most effective escape is: “Shift your focus; Be others centered; Deliver value to community.”

Shift your focus triggers your mind to think shift and readying for some changes.

Other centered means focusing on stuffs that generally matter – like people, community, business, sports, etc. Not yourself in isolation.  Having goals that is other centered like being with God, making a business, helping people, excelling in extreme sports, learning mixed-martial-arts, making an application for android phones, etc.

Delivering value means manifesting or implementing your other-centered goals.  This will in the process, regain your personal trust and respect as well as self-forgiveness.